Fat = crazy

Morrigan writes:

I have been subjected to the same fat hatred from doctors on many occasions. One of the worst was when a specialist recommended bariatic surgery for PCOS. When I asked whether it would cure my PCOS (knowing that it wouldn’t) he replied that it might. It gets scary when I know more about my disease than the specialist. It’s especially scary when a specialist tries to make a patient go for an expensive and dangerous operation based on misformation.
What happened to me today, though, just takes the cake. I suffer from depression and was going to see a shrink. She was manipulative and so I fired her months ago. Last week, my current physican needed a report from her. She had destroyed the records as I requested and was doing it from memory. So all of that is fairly normal.
Today I got the report. She pulled a diagnosis out of her ass of Borderline Personality Disorder and/or Narcissistic Personality Disorder and blames my depression on these “personality” disorders (instead of PTSD which is the actual cause).
And why did I get such a diagnosis? She thinks I have a personality disorder because I don’t hate my body. She thinks I’m narcissistic and out of touch with reality because I am “morbidly obese” at 270 and I’m fine with it. Her damning report is because I am content with being fat.
I don’t know how many ways I can say that before I can believe it myself. If I was living in a country with a medical board, I would report her but I’m in the developing world at present.
Basically, her point is that the entire fat acceptance moment is composed of people with mental health problems because we accept ourselves or at least try to accept and love our bodies.

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  1. I’m really sorry about your experiences Morrigan, but they don’t surprise me in the slightest.

    The point of psychiatry should be healing and transformative care for people who are in, or have a long running crisis.

    Not to create them. Internalize fat hatred, especially long term, can and does case extreme stress, PTSD, is when the parts of the nervous system have been stretched to breaking point, so how would that help, exactly?

    Not to mention that dieting also causes mental mayhem of it’s own. This woman needs an education. She had a chance to learn from you, but chose not to.

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  2. threnody

     /  July 14, 2009

    Wow…personality disorders are a VERY serious diagnosis. I would fight to get that taken out of your medical record if you can, because that can follow you for the rest of your life. I’ve never been more mentally healthy than I have been since I joined the FA movement, and you can quote me.

    threnody – mental health therapist

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  3. Hang on, let me get this straight – liking oneself is delusional and mentally unhealthy? Great – I can stop taking my ‘happy pills’ – turns out I’m more normal than I thought!!

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  4. DISGUSTING. And this woman is being paid HOW much?!

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  5. That is absolutely NOT okay–please ask your physician to remove that from your chart, as it’s completely off-base and dangerous. Self-acceptance=BPD? Seriously?

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  6. I did. She destroyed the notes. I was so angry with her because I feel that self-acceptance is the best path for me. My depression and PTSD had nothing to do with my fat but rather that I was living in hell. Thankfully I’m not there any more.

    I left the counsellor because she was increasing her fee from $45 to $225 an hour. I couldn’t afford the latter price.

    I don’t think I have a personality disorder but she shouldn’t have thrown it out there like that. For one thing the treatment is different and for another, it’s unhelpful. She never mentioned it once during the three months of therapy

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  7. lilacsigil

     /  July 15, 2009

    “Yes, this patient’s self-esteem is FAR too high! Hurt her at once!”

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  8. Toni

     /  July 21, 2009

    Holy s**t. My family thinks I’m insane because I’m fat and happy, but for an MD to diagnose a serious personality disorder for NOT hating yourself. Holy s**t is all I can come up with.

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  9. Jackie

     /  July 21, 2009

    I have been seeing this a lot lately. A troll in a chat, who I have been arguing over with about fat rights. He told me, his problem with me is I’m not smart enough to be ashamed of being fat.

    Then I have this guy on a forum telling this fat guy who can’t get a date, to loose weight because fat people are unpopular. Stuff like, well shaming helps, that sort of BS. Oh and wait, the best was, because everyone says so, it must be true fat is bad. But of course, why should thin people have to back up their views with actual research?

    Two times I’ve heard that cause something is said on a blog, or Big Fat Facts (well with that it’s countless times), it’s BS and just self-serving propaganda of fat people to delude themselves into feeling better.

    I have had the good fortune to have found a psychiatrist who is not size biased. Not that I’d stick around anyways, if my issues were not being addressed in favor for, being thin cures all nonsense.

    I’m starting to sense that this notion that if a fat person is happy with themselves, they must be delusional and in denial of their poor health, is becoming more and more popular with people. The problem I have is the people who say such things, are delusional or in denial of how much they are hurting others, (*cough* MeMe Roth *cough) that they’re not helping anyone, and it’s showing how pathetic they are that they can’t live their lives without having to police others on how they live theirs.

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  10. Synna

     /  July 23, 2009

    I am a fat, feminist psychologist I am appalled at the way you have been treated. Destroying records is highly unethical for a start. And pulling a Dx out of her arse like that is also unbelievable. I hope that if you need a psych(ologist)(iatrist) in future you are able to find one that is competent and professional.

    I usually lurk, but wanted to add my 2c as a mental health professional and as a fat woman. Just wanted to let people know that despite all the terribads in health, there are a few of us fighting the good fight for basic human rights for people of size.

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  11. Thanks Synna. I’d love to have a fat, feminist shrink!

    The irony is that the shrink who dx’ed me was 100llbs heavier that me. But maybe she’s not crazy cos she hates being fat or something?

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