My story isn’t nearly as extreme as a lot of those I see on your site, but it still bothers me.
I’m nineteen. I’m about 5’4 and a half (the half is important, haha), and I weigh 230 pounds. Four months ago, I weighed about 200 pounds. A year ago, when this story takes place, I weighed about 180. I’ve gained a lot of weight in the past five to seven years, since puberty, for no real reason, but a lot more in the past year to a year and a half (maybe it started around two years ago? I’m not really sure, but basically, in the past two years, I’ve gained over 50 pounds). My lifestyle has not changed significantly. I’m not the healthiest person around, but I don’t eat loads of junk food (I could eat more vegetables, but I doubt I’m alone in that!), and I move around plenty. I don’t eat meat. My biggest health vice is probably a diet dr. pepper addiction; that stuff is tasty!
I already have a fear of doctors, but this is ridiculous; if I’m gaining this much weight for no real reason, something’s wrong, right? So, I decided to visit the doctor. I don’t have a regular doctor; I just go to a practice where my mother’s doctor is, and take whoever is available. Anyway, this appointment took place about a year ago, and I said, I think something is wrong. I’m gaining lots of weight, and I don’t know why. All I got was a long talk about how fat I was, and how I needed to change my lifestyle….without even listening to my lifestyle. They also tested some things, I never saw the results in numbers, but basically, everything was pretty normal. I then spent three months exercising (nothing intense, but some exercise) for an hour (usually my routine is half an hour) every day and replacing one meal a day with a small salad (and I’ve never been a breakfast person, so breakfast was usually, like, an apple or something, still is). I gained a few pounds, nothing major, but I definitely didn’t lose weight, or even stay at the same weight. I went back, and told them what I’d done, what they’d told me to do….and they told me to try harder. I’ve never done fad diets, but I have gone through phases where I restrict my calorie intake, and I’ve never managed to stop gaining weight even on less than 1200 calories a day. The only time in my life I’ve ever lost weight was when I was bordering on anorexic for 3 or 4 months, like, eating no more than 800 calories a day. I don’t have an overeating problem. I exercise. But no doctor will even look into the reason that I keep gaining weight! I’m okay with being fat, and if I felt like it was healthy and stable, I’d be fine, but I feel like something is wrong, the way I keep gaining weight, and no one will listen to me.